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2012, Year of the Dragon, and Anti-resolutions.

Forgive me father for I have sinned.

It has been 3 weeks, 1 month– 2 months? Since my last confession…

Writing this post, my fingers are pissed off and my brain is sputtering. I have been uninspired and too “busy” to sit down and write lately. I could use the usual justifications to make myself feel less guilty like: I had two surgeries, I’m too busy, too tired, too apathetic, too whatever–but really, I have just been lazy. There, I said it.  Now lets forgive each other and move. Thank you.

2012 Year of the Dragon (Google)

As you are already aware, it is year 2012; the year of the dragon as determined by the Chinese calendar, meaning: it is going to be one heck of year, especially if you were born under this sign. Dragon years are predicted as being lucky, risky, and over-the-top. With that said, this year I am going to take a risk, and instead of making promises to myself that I will unlikely keep, I am going to make a list of what I am not going to do this year: Anti-resolutions.

Now, I have never  been big on making New Years resolutions in the first place. If I have a goal or a new bar I want to set, I just go out and do it. I guess I have never had a need to compile a list of  New Years resolutions. However, this year is going to be different. Looking back at 2011 and 2010, I can now see some patterns forming. So rather than come up with new promises that I know I’m not going to follow through on, I will focus on not repeating the same mistakes twice, or thrice.

Here are a few of my 2012 Anti-resolutions:

1. I will not let others bad energy determine mine.

2. I will no longer switch over to white wine after drinking red all night. It never works out.

3. I will no longer make an effort to give sincere advice and empathy to people who still refuse to take it, or actually listen.

4. I will not eat waffles with peanut butter for dinner three times a week. Only two.

5. I will not practice patience. Impatient people get things done, damn it!

6. I will not keep trying to read and eat at the same time…still is impossible.

7. I will not stop photographing depressing things. It is my camera and I’ll do what I want, if you don’t like it, don’t look at it.

8. I will not stop listening to K-pop. In fact, I plan on developing an unhealthy obsession.

9. I will not stop judging people who wear flip-flops with jeans, even though I am one of those people now and understand it.

10. I will never stop believing that I am awesome, I am a dragon after all–so this should be my year!

… also I will never stop believing that unicorns do exist.

The Last Unicorn (Google)

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Reverse Culture Shock, Car Accidents, and the Year of the Rabbit.

2011 Year of the Rabbit.

Well it has been almost three weeks now since I have been home from South Korea. Being home is great and all, but to tell you the truth, I really didn’t expect it to be this hard.

It is kind of hard to explain…

Looking back now it was completely stupid and naive of me to think that I could come back from living in a foreign country for four months and just pick right up where I left off; I can’t believe that I actually thought that would be possible. Now, it’s not the fact that I went through some unimaginable change of character  or epiphany while abroad, but I just  had a lot of trouble readjusting  to the life I left behind. The day after I arrived home, I felt as if molten lava had engulfed me over night and left me hard and stuck in place. All my problems, responsibilities, and obligations came rushing back to me… and I didn’t want any of it.

After being by myself for four months with no one telling me what to do or where to go; I was extremely irritable and a bit hostile…well, a bit more hostile than I usually am. Also, I had an idealized view of my home-coming where I would be surrounded by friends in the sunshine and warmth and everything would be hunky-dory. But I actually only set myself up for disappointment because once you leave home, home looses a bit of its magic and you begin to realize that it is just a place, and life does indeed go on without you.

As if that weren’t enough, diving back into American culture was a bit rough as well, I felt slow, apathetic, and bored. Nothing was new or exciting anymore, everything just seemed so mediocre. Additionally, my driving skills have suffered greatly, I’m now really jumpy when I merge, I got into a fender bender the other day, and barely avoided another car accident a few hours ago. The horrible driving practices of Korea must have rubbed off on me!

Despite some mild depression, jet-lag, and near death experiences on the 805, I think I am finally getting my foothold back. However, I still feel like I have no home, that homey feeling that came so easily before my trip has seemed to have all but disappeared; I hope I find it again someday.

Anyways, enough of this nonsense, since it is New Years Eve I can’t very well spend my whole night spilling my guts out, I have a party to attend.

2011 is the year of the Rabbit (Chinese New Year) and I am scared shi*less. This year is supposed to be a year of uncertainty  for me (Dragon) and nothing could be more true. I have so much anxiety and have no idea where I am going to end up. But I have to remember to take it one day at a time, it may not be the most original of mantras but it works, it got me through culture shock in Korea so it sure will get me through anything this year.

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